Freckled - A Philosophy

One summer, after days spent running outside in the sun, my older brother and I discovered our freckles had turned green. We ran through the house telling everyone and laughing at our images in the mirror. It’s one of the last times I remember taking joy in my freckles.

Photo Credit: Carrie Hoge, Quince & Co

I am freckled. Freckles speckle my forehead and cheeks, dot my neck,

boldly cover my shoulders and arms, and cluster on my kneecaps and shins. Not even my hands, fingers, knuckles, feet and toes are free. Wherever the sun hits, I have freckles. 

I have a love/hate relationship with these freckles of mine. They make me more like my mother, one of the most beautiful women I know. But they are also traditionally considered a flaw. They mar my pale skin.

I’m freckled. I’m imperfect. For years, I beat myself up over this fact. I hated myself. I tried to force myself into what I thought the world wanted. I tried to be thinner but curvier, shorter but not too short, blonder or redder but not in-between. I wanted smaller hands, smaller feet, a smaller waist but bigger bust and hips. I tried to learn when to be quiet and when to be raucous, when to laugh and when to swallow my humor. I tried to erase my freckles. I tried to be perfect. 

I still remember the day that I really started to change. It was about halfway through college. I’ve never been good at trusting people with who I really am. But there was one person there who I let know the real me. We were walking down the hall after a class when I think I made a self-deprecating joke about my freckles. She countered with a line from Gerard Manley Hopkins “Pied Beauty,” “Glory be to God for dappled things.” 

In the poem, Hopkins thanks God for all things pied. Pied means multicolored, spotted, dappled . . freckled. Hopkins’ is thanking God for: 

All things counter, original, spare, strange;

Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)

Some years ago, a friend gave my siblings and I handmade mugs. I chose the mug with an imperfection. The clay had collapsed slightly at the lip. When I started dating my husband, I gave him that mug. He understood. That mug was me, fragile and imperfect. Whenever he drank from it, he held that slight curve, that imperfection, against his mouth. It was a perfect fit. 

A freckled bride

In seeking perfection, we too often miss what we have. Life is freckled. It's never perfect. But we can choose to see the beauty in the imperfection.

This blog is me. I'm done with pie-in-the-sky expectations about my personality, my looks, and my life. I’m ready to love, discover, and enjoy my pied, freckled life for what it is. 

I’ll write here about what I love doing. I love writing, sewing, cooking, reading, and philosophizing. In short, I love creating as well as reflecting on other people’s creations. This is something of a DIY/fashion blog, but it’s one with a twist. This is a blog about the beauty of life in all it’s messiness. By blogging about what I love doing, I’m also blogging about where I find that beauty. It’s in the journey of creating, that I have learned and continue to learn to appreciate the life I’ve been given.

When trying to nail down the theme of this blog, my husband summarized, “Even beautiful women have freckles.” I’d like to edit that statement. Life wouldn't be half so beautiful if it weren't for the freckles.

Pied Beauty

Glory be to God for dappled things--

For skies of couple-colour as a brinded cow;

For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;

Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls; finches’ wings;

Landscape plotted and pieced--fold, fallow, plough;

And all trades, their gear and tackle and trim.

All things counter, original, spare, strange;

Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)

With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;

He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change:

Praise him. 

The Changes They are A-Comin' {New Blog Launch Date!}

As my regular readers may remember, I announced several weeks ago that there would be changes to this blog. Among other things, I said I'd be blogging with greater frequency. The weeks have passed and this is my first post since.

I'm here to announce that I didn't lie. Making certain changes has taken longer than expected. I'll be launching my new blog in just over a week on Monday, February 3rd! I'll be coming back full force with lots of fun tutorials, pictures, recipes, philosophizing, and more.

Closer to that date, I'll post a link to my new blog here. Until then, enjoy some of my favorite reads right now.

• Sarai's Wardrobe Architect Series is a topic near and dear to my heart right now!


• Esme and the Laneway always makes me wish for whatever season it currently isn't.


• I'm not pregnant, but I'm definitely filing away Megan's tutorial for someday when I am.


• Loving Jennifer Lauren's Me-Made series.


• This article just about stole the words out of my mouth . . . or the thoughts out of my head.


• My best friend sent this essay over to me a couple days ago. I'm so glad she's sharing it on her blog now.

What to Expect in 2014

New Year's was pretty low key for us. I spent the evening at a friend's party while the hubby worked. Then, I headed home at 1030 to watch the New Year in with him. We discussed goals and desires for the New Year. I don't like to call them resolutions. That sounds like a death sentence. Who actually accomplishes their resolutions? Instead I'll just say that we talked over what we'd like to see happen in our lives in 2014.

While we talked about a lot of things from getting healthier and losing weight to reading more books to achieving a couple of very important financial goals to growing spiritually, I'd like to share some of the goals that directly effect this blog.

Growth

I want to see this blog grow in 2014. That will mean a lot of changes and a lot of sitting back and evaluating what works and doesn't work. Things to look for include a new design and domain, more frequent posts, and more DIY posts. I'd especially like to journal about my pattern drafting and sewing adventures. It takes time and discipline to pull together a project enough to blog about and write a tutorial for it, but I'd like to do more of that in the time to come.

Simplicity

I'm actively seeking simplicity in our chaotic lives this year. To me, simplicity means paring down and getting back to basics, whether that's owning less stuff or (paradoxically) doing things the hard way sometimes. I'd like to blog more about this journey.

Health

The hubby and I are both finding ourselves in a bit of health rut. Tiredness and aches and pains are an everyday thing. We're seeking solutions. As we eat better and get back to basics, I may write a bit about our search. Expect yummy but healthier recipes.

Number 1 Resolution? More Cuddles!

In the theme of growth for this blog, I'd love some feedback. I want to write posts that help or delight others. What would you like to see more of here?

2013: Thankfulness in Review

I'm not usually one for New Year's Resolutions. I figure, if you can't resolve to do something any other day of the year, what difference does January 1 make? That said, this year, the New Year has coincided with some changes I'd like to make in my life. Before writing those resolutions, though, I thought I'd stop and reflect on 10 things I'm thankful for in 2013. Some are profound. Some are a bit silly. So without further ado, here they are (in no particular order).

1) My new boots. I live in a snowy, cold city with lots of walking required. Boots are a must. This December, my husband was able to score 3 pairs of LL Bean boots for $21. Yup. My feet are very warm and blessed.

2) My new nephew. Normally, my nephew would rank higher than shoes, but, as I said, this is in no particular order!

3) My Apartment. Beautiful old brick building. Beautiful arched windows. A handsome husband to share it with. Need I say more?

4) My cat. Until this June, I'd been catless since college. As a lifelong cat owner, this was torture.

5) Happy Best Friends. In September, one of my best friends got married. The other one got engaged on Christmas Eve. She's marrying one of my brother's closest friends.

6) The view from my living room window. It's the little things, right?

7) The view from my bedroom window after a fresh snow. Sadly, I don't have a picture of this, but I love looking over snow covered roofs toward that little hint of restless blue which is the Back Bay.

8) My dear, sweet, handsome husband. It would take more space than I have to even try to encompass how thankful I am for this man. Instead of boring you with sappiness, though, I'll just leave it at that.

9) My family. I'm thankful that the hubby and I both have close, loyal, and ever-growing families.

10) My faith. I serve a risen Savior. For that, I am most thankful.

What about you? What have you learned to be more thankful for in 2013?

My New Specs: A Rivet & Sway Review

I'm not usually one for wearing glasses as an everyday thing. My vision is bad enough that I need some sort of eye correction, but I usually go the contacts route. That, however, has now changed.

Earlier this month, after a prolonged search for new glasses (mine were old, unflattering, and scratched up), I discovered Rivet & Sway, a great new online startup company offering specs tailor made for women.

I  loved ordering from Rivet & Sway. Their customer service was excellent. For example, I contacted them several times throughout my order with questions. They were always quick to respond and provided helpful solutions, even going the extra mile to help me work through some pricing concerns.

Like many online eyeglass companies, Rivet & Sway offers free home try-ons to help you decide which frames to order. They allow 3 frames for 3 days. Mine arrived within a couple days of my order by free two-day Fedex shipping. To return, you simply repack the frames in their original box, stick on the provided return label, and ship them out. Return shipping is also free.

When you place an order, the frames are shipped out in small, cute, brown boxes. Inside is yet another small, cute brown box. And inside of that, in a soft glasses pouch, are your glasses. All glasses cost $199 for both the frames and lenses. If you decide the glasses don't work for you, Rivet & Sway even offers a 60-day, no questions asked return policy.

I had a very specific idea in mind for my new glasses. I wanted round, tortoise shell frames. Everything I found, though, was either too big for my thin face or looked like a toddler's frames. Enter Rivet & Sway's Poetic License. They were an obvious choice for me. The Poetic License frames were made for narrow faces and therefore don't drown out my small features. Plus, because Rivet and Sway designs specifically for women, all the glasses are delicate and feminine without being fragile.

I love my new specs. They're designer quality and design without the designer price tag. As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, I'm typically more of a contacts girl. Since I got my new glasses a week ago, though, I've worn them everyday. I'm definitely a new longterm customer of Rivet & Sway.

After having such a great experience with this company, I'm ecstatic to announce Rivet & Sway as my first blog sponsor! I'm proud to promote this awesome company, and I hope other bespectacled women have just as a great an experience as I did!

Disclaimer: This post was written in partnership with Rivet & Sway. All opinions, however, are my own.

Holiday Prettiness and Birthday Celebrations

This week was all about getting ready for Christmas and celebrating my little bro's 24th.

Tuesday, we took a trip out to a local Christmas Tree Farm. Many pics were snapped but, due to my cheapskate nature, no trees were purchased. I opted to wait and cut our tree in my parents' woods this Saturday. Somehow, I ended up with two trees Saturday, but that's another story for another time (when I have pictures). For now, enjoy our trip to the tree farm!

As usual, the hubby pointed his camera at me. Somehow, we have way more picture of me than him . . . .

After our unsuccessful Christmas tree jaunt, I was awfully bummed (even though I was the one who couldn't stomach a $35 tree), so the hubby graciously agreed that we could pick up some white pine garlands from Trader Jo's. Kitty joined in and we had a lovely time decking the windows.

Finally, I ended the week with a belated birthday party for my brother. We had tacos (made by my mum) and a Blueberry Pancake Cake (made by yours truly), recipe courtesy of Your Cup of Cake. I have some blackmail photos from the evening, but for the sake of my little bro and his friends, we'll stick with pictures of the cake.

Yes. I did color code the candles. Who wouldn't?

What about you? What did you do last week?

Graze Subscription Boxes: A Review and a Few Referral Codes

Sometimes, I signup to try new things and then forget about them. Graze is one of those things. An advertisement for a free Graze box popped up in my Facebook newsfeed last month. I signed up and then went on my merry way, completely forgetting about it till the box came through my mail slot early last week.

What is Graze?

Graze is a subscription box service for healthy snackers. According to their website, they started as a collaboration between seven friends tired of eating junk food. You sign up for biweekly or monthly deliveries, and your subscription can be canceled at anytime. You can choose between a Nibble Box or a Light Box with lower calorie options. Pricing is a bit difficult to find on their website, but I believe each box costs $6.

My Experience with Graze

Graze stresses that their boxes can fit in most mailboxes. I was glad to see that it even fit through my tiny slot since package drop-offs can be a tricky thing in our building.

Anyway, the package had a label instructing me to turn it over in order to open it, or else I would "make a mess." I appreciated these instructions since I would definitely be the type to open from the wrong side and send trail mix flying. Once I opened it, I found four individually wrapped snacks inside: Pomodoro Rustichella, Chocolate Orange, Banoffee Pie, and Fruit and Seed Flapjack (snacks vary from box to box).

The chocolate orange snack was delicious. It included orange flavored cranberries, disks of dark (but not too dark) chocolate, and hazelnuts. All the flavors blended beautifully.

My husband ate most of the Pomodoro before I got to it, but what I had was good, salty but not enough to drown out the flavor. According to the label, it included cheese croutons, tomato baguettes, and tomato and herb almonds.

I'm not a huge fan of dried bananas, but I even enjoyed the Banoffee Pie. But perhaps that's because it included banana fudge. I'm not sure how that's healthy (!), but the fudge didn't taste overly sweet. It was more fudgy in texture than in sugar content. The Banoffee Pie also included dried bananas, almonds, and pecans.

Finally, the fruit and seed flapjack. It was really a fruit and nut bar. It had a light and airy texture rather than the hurts-your-teeth-over-sugared-gooey mess of many commercial fruit and nut bars. It contained rolled oats, mixed seeds, and dried fruit and had a nice mix of sweet and salty, although I could've leaned more toward the salty side.

Out of the 4 snacks, my favorites were the Chocolate Orange for sweet and the Pomodoro Rustichella for savory.

Is Graze Worth It?

It depends on how you judge worth. If you're buying a lot of expensive snacks already, it might be a no-brainer option for you. We don't buy snacks a whole lot ourselves. When we do, it's usually a bag of tortilla chips on sale and cheap or homemade salsa.

Pricewise, Graze isn't spendy, but it isn't cheap either. For the same money I'd spend on two boxes a month, I could get quite a lot more tortilla chips! I did, however, appreciate the quality of Graze's snacks. They tasted fresh and quality-crafted despite having been shipped to me. I can definitely see us trying a few more boxes and maybe getting a treat once a month.

If you're interested in trying Graze, I have 3 referral codes I can share. They'll get you your first and fifth box free (remember, you can cancel at anytime). Because these codes are limited, I'm not sharing it on my blog, but the first 3 people who comment on this post to let me know they want one will get a private message with the code from me.